I have just spent 15 minutes online, looking through quotes about family, moving, and traveling, all to find something that expresses my feelings towards venturing away from home. Something to go along with my new favorite picture of Poppi and Willow, because I know how much I will miss them. Then I had a realization. That’s the wrong way to approach this. My life, up until this point has been dominated by consumption. I have created some media, but for the past 23 years I’ve functioned as a consumer. It’s challenging not to be a consumer in this social media age.
However, those people are not me. J.R.R. Tolkien is a genius in many things, but he has never occupied my mind. Neil Armstrong broke his bonds with earth, but doesn’t know the bonds I share with my own family. Facebook knows me only as well as I do. This move is an opportunity, not just to explore more of the country, but to explore more of myself. To find my unique self.
Then what do I think of moving away? I’m afraid of being so far from all of the people that I have shared my journey with so far. Afraid of losing my family, afraid of failing and not knowing where to turn. When I think of everything that I will miss by being 2,500 miles away, I’m overcome with loss. But my memories with my wonderfully supportive family will not be lessened by distance. I can never forget where I came from. I love each of them, and that cannot be reversed by the mile. Each inch westward I will push to make them proud. I want to show my Poppi, Mimi, Dad, Mom, Sisters, my whole family what it is that I can do. What it is that I love. But, first, I have to find out what I can do.
Each new major life choice is not only accompanied by repercussions, but by untold opportunity for wonderful adventures. Every unexplored road houses unfamiliar experiences. This is immeasurably exciting to me. The freedom to explore and mold myself in a way that I have never been capable. So I fling myself into the abyss of unknowing. Here I come, future. Watch out.